I woke up this Good Friday thinking about Judas Iscariot. Judas, the trusted money keeper who would betray the Son of God. Betrayal. It's an easy and natural response for me to disdain Judas, to clutch my pearls and exclaim "Well, I never!" as if I have not been both the betrayer and the betrayed … Continue reading The Betrayer and the Beloved

It's been a minute. The past 6 months have been...weird. There were moments, a lot of moments, that were simply bad. For a while it felt as though every single day was an extension of the day before -- fraught with loneliness, doubt, anger, fear, and deep sadness. It felt as though my whole world … Continue reading Kaleidoscope

I moved to Dallas as a sophomore in college. After college, I stayed for graduate school. And after graduate school, I stayed because I didn't want to leave. I bounced around various suburbs of Dallas before finally feeling settled in my East Dallas neighborhood. I loved everything about Dallas there. The hardwood floors of my … Continue reading An act of God

“Fully grieve your losses and also, let yourself feel the full weight of your joys."Morgan Harper Nichols It comes in waves, ya know? The grief, then the joy, then the sadness again. I had only been in Florida for 6 months before life came to a sudden stop. Life has stopped and, yet, keeps grinding … Continue reading Full

I really had no idea what I was doing when I enrolled in Biblical Hebrew in college. I only knew that it fulfilled the foreign language requirement and it wasn't Spanish or Greek. Everyone at my evangelical university took Spanish or Greek and the misfits took Hebrew. And I wanted to be with the misfits. … Continue reading Legacy

"Truth sees God, and wisdom contemplates God, and from these two comes a third, a holy and wonderful delight in God, who is love."Julian of Norwich, Revelations of Divine Love It's been almost one year since my departure from the world of evangelicalism. The type of faith I had known my whole life didn't feel … Continue reading Different, but not really.

I have spent my entire adult life learning about children and the church, serving children in the church, or wanting to serve children in the church, so I obviously feel like children are the most important people in a church. In my early days of ministry, I held tightly to certain aspects of ministry that … Continue reading Let them come…

I don't make New Year's Resolutions. . .mostly because I either forget I made them or make them so stupidly unreachable that there's no way I can meet them. Conventional wisdom would say to modify the resolutions I make and to make them more attainable, but my wisdom says to ditch them altogether. Instead, I've … Continue reading 20 Things

I can, with one eye squinted, take it all as a blessing. Flannery O'Connor, "The Habit of Being" 2019 was part dumpster fire, part slow moving merry-go-round with no off switch, and part tie-dye unicorn cake. Every discernible emotion on the human spectrum of emotion has paraded through my conscience like the giant floats in … Continue reading Looking back with gratitude

I have been hurt by the church, profoundly. In my twenties, I felt as though there was no space for my loud, sassy, and opinionated self who had questions and demanded answers. And that no one knew what to do with me, or people like me. I felt in the way and just way too … Continue reading Where the Light enters.